Wednesday, April 25, 2007
live another life
hmm i was writing an essay for my future application in case the universities ever ask for it. It started off...
As I stepped into the Intensive Care Unit, I was confronted with an elderly patient on the bed. She was writhing in pain. Her frail figure engulfed, overwhelmed by the vast array of tubes secured to her wrinkled skin. The continuous beeps on the background sounded comforting, assuring us that she was still alive. Yet, the state that she was in made me wonder whether, to her, that is a blessing. Dr. M. proceeded to her and examined her with his stroboscope. He then passed it to me and let me examine her instead. To my surprise, her heartbeat was not the regular 'lub, dub'. It was more of 'lub, pssshh, whrr'...
hooh i think that is ridiculous. No disrespect meant, but it is quite hard to describe the entire situation in full. Probly i shall remove that sound effect. And yeah, its still full of error. At that time, i got teh shock of my life.
juz booked my tix yesterday. I shall be back in Singapore tmr nite. gotta take care of my pass before it expires on 31 April. sigh... so its gonna be a busy weekend X.X
Left his memories on 7:20 PM|
~ It's just a goodnight and not goodbye ~
Friday, April 20, 2007
inspiration: gone
Oh well, how long was It since I last blogged? A week! This is bad. was really busy preparing myself for interviews and reading books, which turned out it doesnt really help at all.
just did a phone interview with UNSW and NTU. time to pwn wif my lvl99 telemarketing skillz. haha... but my answers were entirely bs. think i screwed up. yaynesses. hopefully all goes well.
supposed to have an interview for NTU aerospace also, but the interviewer called me and did another phone interview instead. He told me to write an email of wad i am gonna say or anything to add on. so dunno whether it is a good thing or not
xtine's in singapore now and i didn get the chance to meet her. this is like gonna be the most regrettable moment of my life. and i swear i am going to warn my grandchildren nxt time not to repeat the same mistake haha... hmmm think far :D
hey xtine XDXD hope u like the things i wrote and drew. haha... i think the chibi drawing is so cute i feel like hugging the paper myself. could not pass u the original copy though.
and one thing yaya just said made me laugh until tearing hahaha...
i wanted to see the scrapbook for myself and i couldnt. So yaya had an idea... i was like wow... and then she told me nxt time during xtine transit in singapore, she can show me the scrapbook through the glass and flip page by page. hahaha....
nice idea though haha... but thankfully xtine gets to go out of the arrival gate and meet us, so we wun have to mime ourselves through the glass and make a dumbshit out of myself.
oh and i owe afew quizzes to xtine. i didn noe she tag me, means i must do it. until vril told me ahaha... T.T
6 wierd things about myself:
1. i can't really differentiate whether a food is sour and salty. all i know is they both make an unpleasant tinge on my tongue. bitter is the extreme and sweet is sweet, so i can know.
2. i shave my face whenever i feel like it. usually twice a month. wait till the time is ripe i think, or i have the urge to rattle my chin becoz its scratchy. and i shave it from right to left instead of the conventional left to right. totally weird rite?
3. i think ns is cool and i dun mind joining it for 2 years. probably i can seek to discover the ultimate manhood a man can ever dream about. probably those ns ppl will like knnbccb we are suffering down here and u wan to voluntarily go down personally to hell? get a life!
4. i feel sad for ppl whose name has 1 or 3 syllables. kinda hard to cheer for. (this is so totally random)
5. i am a sleep god! i can sleep anywhere!!! i sleep infront of my com (usually wen talking to vril). i slp in the toilet afew times becoz i got bored when nothing happens... (enuff said, lets not get to the details)
6. ultimate! and sadness! no matter how hard, no matter how long i have tried to convince others, everyone seems to doubt the credibility of my manhood. seems like the world is against me. this is really sad. what did i dooo...
okay that was emotional. ugh...
hApPy b1rThDaY to vRiL!!! was hoping to be the first to send her birthday wishes, but end up being no.5 ... sigh! nvm i try again next year. haha...
nothing much to do nowadays. have finished my internship last week so i am kinda free. have to find something to do if not i will rot!
ok i shall do the other one of xtine's tag next time cuz its v v long haha... till then, have fun ppl.
Left his memories on 11:40 PM|
~ It's just a goodnight and not goodbye ~
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
painful fewlings
life is getting more lonely now T___T
so many ppl are gg NS, to embark on a quest to discover their manhoode
and i am here rotting at home...
ohwellz... haha!
me: dun worry lah, life will be good
me: anyway u will be out in a year or two... :D
ws: yeah
ws: we become man
ws: u still wimp
can't slp tt nite. T____T on my bed.
kinda true actually. ns trains u to become man and becoming man is not easy.
thus wimp i shalt remaineth.
both of them are gg off by this thurs... life will be sad then.
now there will be less men in the mainland and the girls shall rule over the leftovers... ohgod!
haha... but at least izhar gets to go home everyday so got ppl to talk to at nite. police slackz. no thief to catch den juz eat donuts.
having short police around gets kinda embarassing. (oops...) but it does help during stealth missions, but not raids. can't really secure exits and entrances.
internship gg to end soon probably. nth much left to see in the hospital.
but i did witnezz a horrible suffering tt befallz to this man.
basic rule: what goes in can come out, and vice versa.
they call it endoscopy, or maybe sigmoidoscopy, but i call it Rectal Breach.
they got this looong catheter that has a camera and lightsource at the end which goes waaaayyy deep into the anus.
brandishing the 3cm-diameter catheter, glinting threateningly under the surgical lights, the sight of it can turn the mightiest man into a timid mouse.
no anaesthesis or sedatives given cuz its still considered external surgery. poor thing.
so the doc went here we gooo and the patient squeaked :D
he was made to face the screen so tt he can watch the exploration with that constipated look.
to infinity, and beyond
kinda reminds me of kakashi's jutsu: 'senendoroshi', or 'Thousand Years of pain'
in the end, his anus was flawless, intestines were fantastic. can't find the source of infection so they retracted the catheter.
but juz as it were abt to come out they found the infection at the opening :D
the patient protested
patient: go so deep for wad
patient: so i went thru all these for nthg
doc: oh well...
doc: happens
talk abt lack of reasons to pacify his frustrations of its futility, or to congratulate the hard battle won.
hurt his sensitivities. the poor man... very sad.
wonder where i will be next year.
singapore? US? aus?
i really dunnooo... *confused*
Left his memories on 12:18 PM|
~ It's just a goodnight and not goodbye ~
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
where to go?
haha... good news!
I got accepted to University of Michigan. LOL!!! yay haha
i applied for 3 actually. one was illinois, rejected kinda early in feb liddat cuz application wasn't complete by deadline.
tt time is was damn scared. bad start.
The other was calvin college, but heck abt tt haha... cuz its only a backup.
Budden i am now more interested in NUS. dunnowhy. Last time i was q eager to go US, but now i can't bear to leave asia.
Patriotism, faithfullness, friendship. ALL these things are holding me back dammit!
yeah probably i will stick to studying in NUS or smth. Its abt the same standing as michigan
Then again, there's still aus unis that i applied for so cant say for sure which country i will be in next.
The path of drew's life is so blur ;(
I dunno.... i really dunnooo... *pouts*
(feeling lost)
Now abt my medical internship. Its getting quite amazing and fun lately. Met quite a few young doctors, so i wun feel THAT off being the youngest and all... haha.
It's indeed interesting, but u gotta see and face hard truths. The life of a doctor is one of the most stressful, according to studies. You gotta deal with patient's complaints everyday, be responsible for their lives etc etc. A small mistake could be fatal.
Yeah thats the pressure and all. Even at night u wun get total freedom. Often u get calls late at night becoz emergencies etc etc.
And yeah sometimes diagnosis is bad and you gotta have the courage to speak up and tell the truth to the patients, which sometimes i tink its hard. you gotta be blunt. Like when u tell the patient "you've got cancer". It may sound like a simple line to tell, but it takes a lot of courage to say that, becoz firstly tt line could change the patient's life, and you gotta be able to handle the emo melodrama that follows.
Some doctors might get too sympathetic or emotionally attached to them until they themselves might require counselling in the end
Yeah its not that simple. This morning i met a few HIV positive patients and, God! some of them are YOUNG. He was invovled in narkoba: narkotics dan obat obatan (narcotics and drugs). And its quite common here.
Then i went to look at the Intensive Care Unit (ICU) following 5 other doctors who went for checkup. One of them brought me to this old lady. She was lying there feeble, gasping for air. Its evident she got difficulty breathing.
Doc said she got lung disease, and let me listen to his stratoscope. It sounded like water flowing, churning round and round. MOre aptly. like toilet flushing. over and over again.
She was smiling at me, and yah i didn noe anything to comfort her so i smiled back.
One hour later, doc told me she died at 10am. Imagine my shock. I knew she was in bad con, but didn expect it to come so fast.
I might even be the last person she saw, she touch before she died, for all i know.
Doc was like, "dun be so sad. this happens often." (translated to english)
but, oh well this IS shocking for a start.
haha... life w/o my mom n sis kinda suck bad. Missing my mom's cooking T__T
might be awhile before i can go back singapore haha...
Left his memories on 8:03 AM|
~ It's just a goodnight and not goodbye ~
