Monday, November 21, 2005
dawn of truth
It has been quite long since I last blogged. Haha....
I dunno why I seem to be more busy now than on normal days
I had a wonderful week. It has been a long time since I enjoyed myself. Liberation from studies feels so....liberating.
Had a class chalet on tuesday to thursday, hurhur. I love the cycling session. We cycled through the midnight darkness together from east coast to changi. Then there is also bbq with ms chen and mr hong. We gave ms chen a class photo album and our love-bin. She was touched yay! It was hard for us to accept that she is not going to stay with our class next year.
Being alone at home sucks. My family had gone overseas. I am now alone to take care of myself. Both my neighbours are also gone overseas. Then, i noticed some looming figure cycling about outside my house, for almost 4 nights already.
I'm scared~~~ *shiver*
I feel so lost and I don't know what to do...
Haha.. that's why I try my best not to stay at home, because the solitude really frightens me. When I am alone, I tend to think. And if I think, then it will get worse because all I can think of is never anything good, all the damned memories which won't just go away. I'm tired with all the bullshit that life throws at me.
I have nothing to do while I am alone at home... other than bleach and fullmetal alchemist.
This sucks.
I still haven't watch Harry Potter yet. A lot of people watched already so no one wants to go with me haha..
Who wanna watch with me???
Left his memories on 3:29 PM|
~ It's just a goodnight and not goodbye ~
Monday, November 07, 2005
Libris Veritatus
Here I am, in Justin’s house blogging together separately. I decided to stay over at his house to help me with my OP and I&R. Hmm… after a long year of work and stress, I guess I need a vacation here.
My OP in 2 days time omg… I guess I should be well prepared enough, since my group has practiced about 8 times.
I met Justin somewhere and ate lunch with him and his NY classmates. They were a bunch of fun-loving and friendly people. It is always nice to have an outgoing class, which I can get around with comfortably. They were so united, and cliques are non-existent. They can get along with one another well. They even invited me to their birthday party, how sweet!
But I think I should not be too quixotic. My class is also lovely and fun, but I feel that something is amiss. Some people are still left out, and cliques are common in AJ. Sharing jokes with others also might become awkward. But still, we can get along very well…
I love my class….
I feel that blogging has become rather useless. Reciting my life for others to read is kind of dumb. I think I might blog less nowadays. But still, the cathartic effect of blogging is the only medium for me to resolve my emotions, so I guess blogging is still important for me.
Even so, our perceptions of life is subjective to every person. Even if I blog down my perceptions or feelings, it is still not going to change anything. Everyone of us leads our lives differently, so that makes blogging about my feelings practically useless. The truth is often too much for us to bear.
It is sad that everything we do usually do not go according to what we always want. It will often fall apart and collapse again and again at the last moments.
Some of us are happy the way they are, the way they live.
Some of us cannot accept the truth and continue to live in denials
The sad truth is that the truth is sad...
Blogging randomly again. I guess I have lost my inspirations to blog. My entries are getting more dull and boring.
Let's see how long it can last before it will fall apart again.
Left his memories on 11:04 PM|
~ It's just a goodnight and not goodbye ~
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
reign carnation
Chinese is finally over, and I hope I can pass and do well. Haha... I am so relieved that LBY is not gonna teach us again. Now, the last hurdle is OP. I hope my group and my class can do well for that, all band 1.
I'm rather sick of Project Work. It is useless and draining. But it does bond our class together. The random selection of group members somehow made our class more united. Those moments when the whole class stayed back till 9 to complete WR before submission the next day. It is rather fun. We had a lot of fun with Patrick Lim and Ms Sa*!&#$@ also. I guess PW is kinda useful.
It's deepavali today and our friendly Sharmini welcomed us to her house. It is really fun playing together... haha. And Sharmini's brother is so damn wonderful. He is soooo cute, even though I'm a ^#$%*. I dunno why, but I saw myself in him. He reminds me of my childhood, the days of innocence. I feel that it is only right for me to aid his development. He has the potential to become like me one day. And.... he likes me tooo....
I love kids <3 <3 <3 !
Went to Justin's house after that, since his house is nearby, and it is still kinda early anyway. Haha... we had a great time crapping together. He's the only person I know who shares the same interest and hobby as me: collecting marvel comics.... I didn't know the storyline is gonna be changed so much after the 'House of M' series. For the next series, the mutant population is going to be baselined to 198 mutants left in the world. wtf!
The last few days has been quite fun. Sunday I went to zoo with my church. damn fun...<3
Yesterday my class went to watch flightplan, and it sucked. The movie is boring. It revolves around finding a kidnapped daughter, and how the mother got fucked up in the process, damn lame....
I have to be dragged back to school during the holidays. grr... I can't even attend chalets fully. The teachers asked me to attend so many activities that my holiday isn't going to be fun anymore. I guess I will not be joining the class for service learning. *sniff*
I shall play FF7 and maple story 24/7 until I die...!!!
My Daily Bread:
For all have sinned
and fall short of the glory of God,
being justified freely by His grace
through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus.
~ Romans 3:23-24 ~
Left his memories on 4:28 AM|
~ It's just a goodnight and not goodbye ~
