Wednesday, April 04, 2007
where to go?
haha... good news!
I got accepted to University of Michigan. LOL!!! yay haha
i applied for 3 actually. one was illinois, rejected kinda early in feb liddat cuz application wasn't complete by deadline.
tt time is was damn scared. bad start.
The other was calvin college, but heck abt tt haha... cuz its only a backup.
Budden i am now more interested in NUS. dunnowhy. Last time i was q eager to go US, but now i can't bear to leave asia.
Patriotism, faithfullness, friendship. ALL these things are holding me back dammit!
yeah probably i will stick to studying in NUS or smth. Its abt the same standing as michigan
Then again, there's still aus unis that i applied for so cant say for sure which country i will be in next.
The path of drew's life is so blur ;(
I dunno.... i really dunnooo... *pouts*
(feeling lost)
Now abt my medical internship. Its getting quite amazing and fun lately. Met quite a few young doctors, so i wun feel THAT off being the youngest and all... haha.
It's indeed interesting, but u gotta see and face hard truths. The life of a doctor is one of the most stressful, according to studies. You gotta deal with patient's complaints everyday, be responsible for their lives etc etc. A small mistake could be fatal.
Yeah thats the pressure and all. Even at night u wun get total freedom. Often u get calls late at night becoz emergencies etc etc.
And yeah sometimes diagnosis is bad and you gotta have the courage to speak up and tell the truth to the patients, which sometimes i tink its hard. you gotta be blunt. Like when u tell the patient "you've got cancer". It may sound like a simple line to tell, but it takes a lot of courage to say that, becoz firstly tt line could change the patient's life, and you gotta be able to handle the emo melodrama that follows.
Some doctors might get too sympathetic or emotionally attached to them until they themselves might require counselling in the end
Yeah its not that simple. This morning i met a few HIV positive patients and, God! some of them are YOUNG. He was invovled in narkoba: narkotics dan obat obatan (narcotics and drugs). And its quite common here.
Then i went to look at the Intensive Care Unit (ICU) following 5 other doctors who went for checkup. One of them brought me to this old lady. She was lying there feeble, gasping for air. Its evident she got difficulty breathing.
Doc said she got lung disease, and let me listen to his stratoscope. It sounded like water flowing, churning round and round. MOre aptly. like toilet flushing. over and over again.
She was smiling at me, and yah i didn noe anything to comfort her so i smiled back.
One hour later, doc told me she died at 10am. Imagine my shock. I knew she was in bad con, but didn expect it to come so fast.
I might even be the last person she saw, she touch before she died, for all i know.
Doc was like, "dun be so sad. this happens often." (translated to english)
but, oh well this IS shocking for a start.
haha... life w/o my mom n sis kinda suck bad. Missing my mom's cooking T__T
might be awhile before i can go back singapore haha...
Left his memories on 8:03 AM|
~ It's just a goodnight and not goodbye ~
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