Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Hopes in Life
Pain. Abject, horibble, excruciating pain. Unrelenting, unbearable and unspeakable pain. (ok la.... not that bad, but still painful) Ugh! *clutch my heart* My life is getting worse day by day. Unspoken truths, hurtful revelations, harsh oppressions and desolate solitude. A lot of things I wanna say, but I couldn't share it with anyone. But I can't be so gullible to trust anyone.
Sometimes even our friends might hurt us unintentionally. What they hoped that is good for us, might not end up as desired. Analogy: Happy Tree Friends.
I am in need of friends. Someone that I can call my "best friend". I really miss Catholic High. Should have treasured those moments when we are still together. Should have enjoyed those times when we can feel each other's presence. In AJ, the feelings are not there. Felt that I am just a joke there. No one that I can rely on. No one cares....
I am not the only person having this torment inside now. There are others who experience difficulties within themselves. But still, words and encouragements might not help at all. When we are esperiencing deep sorrow or difficult circumstances, we may feel offended if someone suggest that something good may emerge from our adversity. A well-meaning person who tries to encourage us may be percieved as insensitive or unrealistic. There are times when our hurts and fears can close our heart to the hopes in life and even our friends and people around us. In the darkest times, when the days are long and weary, we still need friends to support us and pull us through.
Last Sunday, I met up with my Cat High friends at Victoria Concert Hall, watch Keng Wee perform for his RJ chorale. It has been a long while since I experienced joy and laughters. The performance was brilliant and, some parts, hilarious. The concert ended around 10pm, then we went to Starbucks at Raffles City to eat together. Created a lot of turbulence. Took a picture together....
That's me in the corner, blocked by "someThing" huge... ooops
I felt really comfortable and happy to be with my old class again. But still, there are some people I wished to see that are absent.
I really wish that I can relive the old days. Wish that I would have the wisdom to understand the things in life. Also wish that I can find a true friend soon.
My Daily Bread:
Some friends may ruin you,
but a real friend will be more
loyal than a brother.
Proverbs 16:24
Left his memories on 1:27 AM|
~ It's just a goodnight and not goodbye ~
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